With Summer just beginning, I've decided to make some changes in my life. I feel like the start of a new season is the perfect start to a new lifestyle. I'm so tired of living my life at half capacity. I want to live each day to the fullest. I often find myself setting goals for myself and I never follow through with them. I get off to a great start, but I become quickly discouraged, stop working towards my goal, and eventually set a new goal for myself; then the cycle begins all over again.
For once in my life, I want to finish something. I want to see a goal through from start to finish. My lack of commitment to things is quite troublesome; especially when I can't even commit to my own well-being or happiness. This summer, I am determined to make some major changes in my life. I want to completely flip my life on it's head. I have set many goals for myself. They are as follows:
I will learn how to value myself and those close to me. Instead of being flaky and noncommittal, I will apply myself and work on strengthening relationships I have let slip away. I will focus on my mental, emotional, and physical health like never before. For me, this Summer will be all about strength. Finding the strength to push myself farther than I ever have before. I want to work on being more self-sufficient, so I will find and keep a a job for once in my life. I will learn how to enjoy solitude and find the beauty in being alone. There is nothing pathetic about solitude, and I will remind myself of this daily. I am enough; just as I am in this very moment. Flaws and all, I am worthy of love. I will love myself fully and accept who I am. I will find inner peace and happiness.
The goals I have set for myself will be tough to keep, however, I know I must keep them. For once in my life, I'm doing something completely for myself. These goals do not have shallow reasons behind them; these goals come from the deepest recesses of my soul. I have been starving myself for many years. I want to nourish my spirit, and illuminate the inner light I have been allowing to dim. I will become self-actualized and hopefully fill the gap I have been trying to patch with superfluous things.
I will try to keep my blog updated with my progress. There will be triumphs and pitfalls, I'm sure. That's life though, isn't it? The path to any goal is never a straight line. I've laced up my boots and slipped on my trooper pants, I'm ready for this journey. I've needed this adventure. A part of me thinks I've been needing it my entire life, I simply wasn't prepared for it until this very moment. The season is changing, and so is my soul.
Lindsey. Twenty-Five. Currently pursuing a degree in Professional Writing & Film Studies.