I've slowly come to the realization that people are just big, fat liars. They say one thing, and do the complete opposite of whatever it is they told you. One lie in particular that I seem to hear the most is that someone cares about me. I've heard it so many times. However, every person that has told me this, has hurt me on so many levels. I was under the impression (silly me) that we want to protect the people we care about, not hurt them.
Sure, I've heard of telling little lies to protect the people we care about, but I've never heard of blatently lying to someone we supposedly loved and cared about. What sick and twisted satisfaction do these liars get out of building us believers up, and tearing us down? If it's happened to you, then you know exactly what I'm talking about. These liars put you up on this pedestal, and make you feel like you're so secure, and that they'll be there to support you forever. Then out of nowhere, they disappear.
Sometimes they'll give you an excuse. The whole, "It's not you, it's me" line is always great. Other times they just vanish. Not even leaving a puff of smoke behind them. Maybe the "pressure" of caring for another soul got to heavy for them. Last time I checked, didn't science suggest the human soul weighs 21 grams? I don't know, but unless a person has the upper body strength of a flea, 21 grams doesn't seem like too much to carry around.
Maybe I'm the only person out here that continually keeps getting duped. Perhaps I'm just too guilible for my own good. I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. If you tell me something, I believe it. So for example when someone tells me they want to be in my life, I assume this statement means they actually want to be in my life. How foolish of me, right? Apparently what this statement means is "I want to show up in your life, give you some false hope that I'm sorry for the things I did and said in the past, and then I plan on leaving you again. Pretty much the exact same way I did before."
I just wish people had the capacity to be honest with one another. Stop giving people false hope. Stop leading them on. If you want to be in someone's life, be in it, and stay in it. Don't just show up whenever it's convenient for you. I know we all live busy lives, but in the time it takes to create a lie or walk out on someone, you could just sit down and be honest with them. Tell that person exactly what you want.
I didn't intentionally write a rant. I just get seriously frustrated with people and with myself. I'm afraid I'm setting myself up to get hurt constantly because of my optimistic attitude towards certain things and people. I'm tired of being lied to.
So my challenge for you: If you care about someone, don't lie to them. Honesty really is the best policy.
Lindsey. Twenty-Five. Currently pursuing a degree in Professional Writing & Film Studies.