It's so strange that hindsight is 20/20, but when we're living in a moment, living and breathing right within this fragment of time, we can be so blind. They say it's better to have loved and then lost than to never have loved at all; but what if you loved and tossed and now you are left feeling empty and lost? I made a mistake almost a year ago to the day, and I have been reeling from the events every second that I am breathing.
I am haunted by the ghosts of my past and past actions. I don't know if I am capable of moving on, or if I even should. It is advised to learn from your past and never look back, but what if a piece of your soul is tied to the past? Cutting this loose will not only hurt, it will kill a piece of my entire being. Is it possible to open doors from the past and not get them slammed back into our faces? I am seriously contemplating opening old wounds in attempt to heal. I don't want to hurt anyone further, I just want to be happy. I was happy once, truly happy; I just couldn't see it.
So, do you believe it's safe to rattle the skeletons in my closet? Or should I let the dead rest in peace and die along with them?
Lindsey. Twenty-Five. Currently pursuing a degree in Professional Writing & Film Studies.