We’ve all heard the saying, “If it’s not broken, don’t fix it”. But what happens when you’re unsure if the thing is broken? Have you ever been in a situation where you want something to work so badly, that you become blind to reality? I’m scared I’m starting to find myself in this situation. It’s crazy and kind of unfair how some things start out so perfectly, but over time the perfection starts to wear off, and the cracks begin to show. I’m desperately waiting for someone or something to swoop in with some super glue, so I can put back together what’s falling apart right before my eyes.
While I’m wishing for glue, I also start to wonder if this thing is worth saving. I don’t want to be apathetic, but I’m starting to become that way. Some things are two way streets, and in my situation, I feel like I’m the only one driving. I’m just really confused about this whole thing, and I am wishing and waiting for a sign to let me know what I should do. I’m more than willing to glue this back together, but I need help from the person that’s contributing to the cracks.
On top of things falling apart around me, I’ve just been feeling super stressed lately. I’ve been getting really swamped with school work. My responsibilities at home are starting to take a toll on me. I haven’t been sleeping as much as I would like to. I’m still trying really hard to get healthy, and it’s been super hard just finding the time to work out, and meditate. But I’m dedicated to these healthy changes, so even though I’m super stressed now, I really think my hard work will pay off in the long run.
I kind of believe my goal of living a healthier life, is one of the reasons I’m starting to reevaluate certain situations. I just want to live the best life I possibly can, and be surrounded by people that have similar goals. We all deserve the very best, and I think sometimes we have to make tough decisions for our own benefit in the long run. Glue can hold things together pretty well, but unless the bigger issue is addressed, whatever you’re gluing together will just continue to crack.
So I challenge you to: Address the bigger issue in your life, don’t just rely on glue to fix your problems. And do what’s best for you; don’t worry about the implications, sometimes you have to put yourself and your needs first.
Lindsey. Twenty-Five. Currently pursuing a degree in Professional Writing & Film Studies.