I've been thinking a lot about my future lately. I used to think I had a pretty definitive plan for the way my life would pan out. I'm maturing every day and thinking much harder about what I really want out of life, and what is really important to me. When it comes down to it, all that really matters is love, and having good people to share the experiences of your life with.
I have some great people in my life, but I'm starting to look closer at these people. I'm quickly starting to realize which of these people are actually going to be there for me through thick and thin. I value everyone in my life, and I believe people are put into our lives for a reason. Sometimes they aren't placed there permanently though. So I'm trying to value the time I have with these people, while I have them. On the other hand, there are some people in my life that I know will be there forever. I have amazing friends all over the country, and some incredible people on different continents. These are the people that I would honestly lay my life on the line for, and I really believe they would do the same for me.
I used to say that I didn't really believe in love, but once you've found it, it's impossible not to believe. I also used to say that I really didn't care about marriage. I didn't feel like I needed a piece of paper to validate my love for another person. But today I was thinking, and I realized, it's really not about that paper at all. Marriage is about more than wasting money on an elaborate wedding, in an attempt to prove your love for someone. The wedding itself is an opportunity to publically proclaim your love for that other person.
I think there's something special about giving your last name to another person, and giving up your last name for someone you love. I look forward to the day I go to fill out my marriage license, and the day I go shopping for a wedding dress. I want the wedding itself to be really small and intimate. No more than 50 people. I want the people I mentioned earlier to be there. The ones that are really going to be there for me, and are truely happy that I've found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.
I believe we're all growing and changing constantly. I think this is a positive thing. If life and the people in it were static, where would all the joy and excitement be? I believe we should embrace the changes in our lives, and look for the people that will be there to experience these changes with us. Life's a difficult thing to go through, so why try to go through it alone?
My question for you: What changes have you gone through lately?
Lindsey. Twenty-Five. Currently pursuing a degree in Professional Writing & Film Studies.